you hold my world in the palm of your hand;

God has given me much more than I deserve. He has given me much more than what I give to him. Thank you. I told a friend and she told me to "Start giving." I'll do just that :)

I entered the hall but left shortly after, I was too afraid. In the few minutes that I was inside, at the corner of the hall, I prayed and ask for God to grant me peace. Even though I kept telling myself that God has a plan for my future, and I should not worry about this. But I can't stop worrying. So I left the hall and sat in the canteen with a friend. We went back at 3.15pm. I was still fearful. But I closed my eyes and prayed. Then I tried to focus, tried to calm myself down and then I heard my name being called. I was shocked; 5 distinctions. I went up; told my friend to look at my GP results, thank God I passed, and managed to get a B. But still, I cried tears of disappointment, I didn't do well for my H1 econs. When I saw that C, I couldn't control and I cried. I called my mum, while crying. I made her cry, too. She's just so emotional. Then I remembered what I told God the night before, that all I wanted was to pass all my physics and get my A for chem. And then it occurred to me that I got A for physics and chem. I felt stupid for crying. Why wasn't I satisfied with what I got? Hadn't I expected to get a C for physics, a B for Chem and an A for Math? On that stage, I knew God was telling me something, I knew he wanted to teach me to trust him. He has my future in his hands, and yet I was so afraid to be even in the hall, I just left the hall. I felt very upset that I cried for my H1. God has given me more than what I wanted and expected, and yet I couldn't trust him enough to stay in the hall and have that peace he always gives. But I know now, God planned this, He wanted me to learn to trust him, to know that he hears me. :')

And yes, start giving, start serving with my 5 loaves and 2 fishes :)